I Thought I Would Be Stuck Forever
--
Jody’s Story
I have worked with people for many years and fall in love with the beauty each person has inside each time. Jody is one such person. She was quiet, shy and unassuming. Then during a week she had deep life experiences and wrote the most beautiful letter which I published in a small newsletter for our center. Her words, her story are so eloquent and deeply moving I wanted to share them with you because truth is universal. Jody gave me permission to share her words, her story here, with you.
Elana
I AM THE CELEBRATION! How many of us can say that about ourselves? It wasn’t that long ago that I would have ever in a million years thought that about myself. But I can now say and honestly feel that I am and I believe it.
It’s an amazing feeling believe me. It’s even more amazing for me to go from just having that thought, that feeling to now, actually seeing the miracle of myself unfold right before my eyes in my daily life. And it is only just the beginning. The beginning of my new life. My choice to take the clothes of my old life off and to now darn the robes of myself as a miracle, an amazing celebration here on earth. How did I ever get to this point you might wonder. I almost wonder myself. I never thought it was possible. I thought I’d never ever get to this place. This amazing place of aliveness, gratefulness, and passion for living we would all like to know.
I have been living in a sticky place, a place I thought that I would be stuck forever, the place I had made for my life. A box more like it. A place where I felt safe. A place where I could control things. My family, my kids. A place where I could avoid pain and disappointment. So I thought…
I lived in this sticky place because I abandoned MYSELF. I abandoned all the things inside myself that are important to me. I completely lost my CONNECTION to myself and therefore the rest of life as well. I couldn’t see my underlying needs that I neglected day after day. I was left with feelings of exclusion from people and life. A…